Sympathy from fellow mixed-up person.

thanks

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We used to change, but it got boring...

I have trouble working other people out too. The best I think you can do is to find people whom you admire, and observe how they treat other people. Then re-think how you behave accordingly. Which doesn't mean copying them, exactly, just learning the general rules. I'm no expert but this tactic has been of use to me in the past. Don't be tooo eager, try to be laid back if you can, though at the same time, try and engage with them.

It's all to easy if you're lonely just to give up in despair, or soften the blows to your pride by thinking they're to blame. Well, maybe they are self-centred and exclusive, in some cases. But you have to play the world by its rules. These people react to you as they do for a reason. Maybe you shoudl try to find out what it is and if your behaviour is repelling them in some way, change it. Just try to show you are just another person like them. People are naturally suspicious of "the other".

All this is easier said than done for introverted people. I seem to have something at the very least bordering on avoidant personality disorder, which means that my behaviour in company is very erratic- on occaision I can "engage", be very talkative, etc. Other times I just can't stand being around other people, which can make me act strangely or give an impression of hostility because I avoid people I actually really like- but actually I am just afraid of being hurt. So my popularity fluctuates wildly. Rather than always trying, it seems easier to give up and content yourself with being a maverick loner. But I've done that in the past, and I know it isn't for the best.

Not quite sure where I'm going with these ramblings, or if they're even relevant, but good luck, my friend. Don't give up cos, you're not alone!

I continue to greatly admire your poetry. I hope you find some solid ground.

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That's the funny thing about memories, we are only what we remember of ourselves.
-Trevor Goodchild

why?

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We used to change, but it got boring...

Why do I hope you find some solid ground? or Why do I admire your poetry?

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That's the funny thing about memories, we are only what we remember of ourselves.
-Trevor Goodchild

the first one because of the second

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We used to change, but it got boring...

I admire your poetry because it is extremely honest in its emotions. Because of that, I guess it kind of worries me slightly.

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That's the funny thing about memories, we are only what we remember of ourselves.
-Trevor Goodchild

I think the same as Amaranthine. But I can kind of relate to what your feeling right now-life's a blur.
I'm not sure if you want advice, but i'd say that you might want to change some things in your life.
That's what i'm doing day by day...
And a break down here is what happend...
talk to you later-i got to go, but will finish this later!

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The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.